Often I face the issue of how to pay for my medical expenses. The bills add up faster than bunnies multiply.
I asked one of my good friends for ideas on how to raise some money for my medical expenses. I was thinking, bake sale, selling candy bars, ya know, little things. Some how this turned into a large extravaganza including a concert and an art showing. I was so thrilled and wanted to help out in every way. I saw big things happening, I even had the desire to turn this event into something that could help other people who were in similar situations as me. Unfortunately I had become ill to another CF exacerbation (lung infection) and was busy having/recovering from sinus surgery and was not able to help organize this event.

My friends quickly took over the planning. In fact two fellas who were mostly strangers when this began, took this challenge by the horns and have organized an awesome event that will be taking place this Saturday. They began The Aspen Fund. The fund initially will help me with my medical expenses, and I had hopes of taking it over and turning it into a full fledged non-profit organization to help others eventually.

The past few days I have been in tears. The stress of this event has really taken a toll on everyone involved. I didn’t mean for this to stress everyone out to the point they are so mean/evil/hurtful to others. I am starting to regret asking for help. And after it took me so long and how hard it was for me to do, I feel absolutely horrible.

I am so thankful for everyone involved in this event and I am very sorry if it has caused you any pain, hurt feelings or undue stress.

This leaves me to wonder why something so loving, caring and beautiful could leave someone like me feeling so horrible.